Life is strange, isn’t it?

This morning, I was reading over some results from an emotional healing test I took yesterday. The outcome was surprising but became enlightening after a bit of time sitting with it.

“An area worth exploring is whether there are any unconscious beliefs around

·Deserving success.

·Receiving support.

·Being recognized for your gifts.”

This is after a lifetime of work, digging into understanding why I did what I did, the stories I was constantly telling myself, and trying to do better each day.

During the session, the practitioner suggested that I had difficulty feeling comfortable with being “seen.” I agreed with him. If I was being honest, being seen has been a lifetime challenge for me.

This morning, as I was sharing the test results with my husband, I experienced an AHA moment that really shook me.

From the time I was a kid, I wanted to sing. I studied voice, became a singer/songwriter, and then, in 2005, was offered a professional recording contract by SONY Records. My friends were shocked at my response to my offer.

“I’m going to let someone else take that contract. It’s not something I want to do.”

I told everyone that I never saw myself as a professional singer and I had other, more important things to do.

Inside, I knew the truth: I was terrified that I wouldn’t measure up. What if my audience hated my shows? What if they believed they wasted their money on buying a ticket to hear my songs?

“Her music isn’t that good. Why is she even here?”

Then, in 2020, my book, which I had self-published a couple of years earlier, was picked up by a traditional publisher. Let My Legacy Be Love came out in 2021, which was horrible timing. It was nearly impossible to do the necessary work to market the book during the pandemic when venues were struggling, and there were so many rules about get-togethers.

Once the pandemic was over, though, the book was still sitting on my shelf.

“Why aren’t you out there talking about it? It’s such a good book, and it could help people,” friends and readers alike offered.

Inside, I knew the truth: Since the book is about overcoming childhood wounds, I was a little concerned that I would be judged for sharing my story so openly.

Readers might think:

“I had way worse things happen to me.”

( I share my story to open readers to the hidden wounds that may be holding them back.)

“Why are you whining about something that happened years ago?”

(There's no whining involved. I loved growing up on a farm—it was an amazing experience. But understanding these childhood wounds was absolutely life-changing for me. My intention in sharing my story is to help others consider how their own wounds might be holding them back.)

“Your book isn’t even an Amazon bestseller.”

(If every book is an Amazon bestseller, is ANY book an Amazon bestseller? Publishers’ Weekly loved it, and that’s worth way more than a paid Amazon best seller campaign! Just sayin’)

So, where’s the AHA?

This morning, as I was talking with my husband, I saw it. Everything came into focus.

As a super-sensitive kid growing up in a volatile home, I learned to keep my head down, to be as small as possible so as not to be noticed. I didn't want to be seen. Speaking up and being seen could make me a target.

The crazy thing is that all this time, as I’ve been singing, writing, and creating content about living an unconditional life, I truly believed it was how I was living mine. I honestly believed I was okay with being noticed.

But what was revealed was that I have been living small because I have been living my conditioning. I'll say it again...

I have been living my conditioning!!!

Wow! (If you missed it, there is the AHA.)

At this moment, I am committing to you and to myself to develop a new, life-affirming mindset.

I deserve to be seen. You deserve to be seen. We all deserve to be seen in our own unique way.

Now is the time to dig down into your patterns and start examining why you stay in toxic relationships, or work for uncompassionate bosses, or take b.s. from your family members. Why are YOU the family doormat?

It’s time for you to let go of conditioning and finally start living your life.

A great place to start is by checking out what I proudly call my non-Amazon bestselling book, Let My Legacy Be Love, A Shortcut to Self-Loving.

There’s a guidebook in the back that can walk you through determining lifelong habits that are keeping you in your conditioning. (I’ve been told by readers that it’s an amazing addition.)

Or you can work directly with me. I would be so honored.

It’s time for you to really LIVE!