I'm Only Happy When It Rains

I’m Only Happy When It Rains

This morning, I woke up in a funk—the same dark place I thought I had escaped after succumbing to the weight of events in the world for a few months.

A two-week search for clarity had lifted my spirits, and I was feeling better.

At least I had been...

My tired eyes searched out the clock. 4:38 AM. Ugh.

I sighed, dragged myself out of bed, fed the cats, set up the coffee, and went downstairs to exercise.

Before picking up my weights, I selected a '90s playlist, then stood, looking out the sliding glass door where the darkness was still holding the woods captive.

I didn’t feel like lifting weights, or dancing, or doing core work. I felt heavy and unmotivated, and even a little sad.

“What is wrong with me?” I asked into the empty room.

As if on cue, a wind kicked up just outside the door, causing the chimes hanging from the eaves to sing.

At the very same moment, the music changed, and an upbeat voice of the lead singer of the band Garbage pumped through the speakers.

“I’m only happy when it rains. I’m only happy when it's complicated. You know I love it when the news is bad. Why does it feel so good to feel so sad?”

The lyrics jostled me right out of the funk that only moments before threatened to ruin my day.

I hopped up, grabbed my cat, Sherlock, and hugged him hard.

“Distraction!” I exclaimed, as his big eyes stared calmly into mine.

You see, when you are distracted by your emotions, such as feeling sad or ticked off, or in some cases furious, you’re too busy reacting to that emotion to ask yourself why you feel that way. Or if you do ask yourself, you’re not in a place to analyze the core of your feelings.

Distracting yourself from getting to know YOU is a convenient habit – and the good news is that, because it’s a habit, you can change it if you choose to.

It seems that everyone is confidently predicting what’s next for you.

If you have been spending time on social media or watching the news, I’m sure you’ve heard at least one or two of the “end times” theorists warning you to buy your tin foil hat and hunker down in your basement with three years worth of food.

Oh, and don’t forget that plastic water bottles are full of microplastics that can kill you, so you'd better hop on Amazon to purchase the next lightning deal on a water storage unit.

Believe me. I’ve heard it all, too.

Personally, as I dragged myself out of the funk, I adopted a new motto.

“The best way to predict the future is to create it.”

And I put my money where my mouth is. I had my website redesigned to reflect a more positive direction because I believe we can help each other grow when we create together.

You’ll notice a bee theme across the site. Check out the front-end video, which explains why!

There’s no better time than now to start creating your best future.

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